Back at it.

Currently I'm back on the HCG diet. Took a few days off, and that probably wasn't my best idea. I just got done re-loading. Which means for the first two days of the diet you need to eat a lot of fatty foods to gain fat, so that when you start the VLCD (very low calorie diet) you have the energy to keep going. Today, all I've had is some water, coffee, and I had some leftovers from the night before. It was taco meat, with diced potatoes, and corn all mixed together. The taco meat is ground turkey, so it's a nice lean protein. I need to start drinking more water though, and weening myself off of caffeine yet again. I get into the habit of drinking pop, and drinking energy drinks, and then I end up with massive headaches when I don't drink caffeine all day. Like nauseatingly miserable headaches that no Tylenol or Ibuprofen will get rid of. So I usually end up weening myself off of caffeine, quitting for a few weeks, and then drinking it all over again :( This time will be different though. The rest of this year is going to be about change and no excuses. I can't keep being over weight. It's depressing, frustrating, and miserable. I want to walk into a clothing store and know no matter what I put on it will look good. I want to wear a shirt, and not worry about my fat hanging out. I don't want to worry about muffin tops, jiggly arms, or pooches. I am going to do this, I am going to have the will power to succeed, and I AM GOING TO BE SKINNY!

Miracles Do Happen

So, I decided to start doing the HCG diet, minus the actual HCG drops/pill. And I have to say it's probably the hardest thing ever, yet the best thing ever. You can't cook anything in any type of fat, carbs are limited, no sugar, and your required to have a very low caloric intake for the first two weeks. I took a week off of the diet, only because with my significant other having medical procedures done, cooking has been kinda hard for me to do. But, when I began the diet, I lost a total of six pounds in three days. Its the most amazing thing I've ever done. Am I hungry in between meals? At first, yes. But my stomach got used to not eating a lot, and then I wasn't very hungry in between meals. I've gained a pound back off of the diet, but I have been off of it for a few days, and my diet since hasn't been the greatest because I've been eating on the go a lot. But, I'm going to start back up on Monday. I swear by this diet though, and the first day or two will test your will power, but, in the end I feel the results are very much worth it.

Update

So, I realized I haven't done a very good job at keeping everybody updated on what's going on with my diet and exercise program. And part of that is because I'm kinda ashamed of how things have been going. I haven't really been eating at all during the day. Like, actually I don't eat during the day. I've been taking ant acids when I get hungry, because I get heart burn really bad. But every time I take an antacid I am no longer hungry. So I just haven't been eating. But at night time I eat dinner with Joe and after I eat once, I snack pretty much until I go to bed. Every night, when I go to sleep, I think ok, I won't do this tomorrow. And I justify it with not having eaten all day. But I know all I'm doing is having my body hold on to every ounce of fat I consume.
As for exercising....yeah that's not been happening at all. I haven't worked out since day three I think. I just missed a day, and then it just kept going. Everyday, I'd say oh I'll work out tomorrow, no big deal.
So, to end this post I'm going to say, that starting tomorrow (as it is too late for me to workout tonight) I will no longer use the excuse, I'll do it tomorrow.
I can't keep living this way.

Some Interesting Facts I Found Out

While on the lookout for an amazing butt workout, I came across a video that I think everyone should check out.

http://www.beyonddiet.com/bd/landing?food=avocado&a=380

It's a real eye opener to what you should really be eating when dieting. It basically talks about how sugar and processed foods boost insulin and make the liver work harder, which makes it harder for your body to burn fat.  It explains how to create a better metabolism. If you're someone like me, who has a slow metabolism, this is amazing to learn. Basically it explains why eating more organic foods can help your metabolism. It's easier for your body to break down the food, and it helps avoid blood sugar spikes which makes your body produce insulin, which in turn makes your body store fat. But, at the same time, its not the typical starvation diet. It allows you to actually EAT! That's right, EAT! But here's the catch, it can only be foods that are actually healthy. The lady in the video says, "Read the label on the back. If there's ingredients you can't pronounce, or don't know, then your body is the same. It can't break down things that are foreign." Which makes a lot of sense, if your body is try to break down additives and other chemicals found in processed foods, it's not going to be able to do what it really needs to do. It'll slow down your metabolism, because your body will be working sooo hard to break down the chemicals, and essentially try to figure out what needs to stay and what needs to go. For example, things that only contain ONE ingredient in them should stay in your diet. Such as chicken breasts, eggs, and nuts. Things such as "Low-Fat" Muffins, artificial sweeteners, and orange juice need to go. Now, I'm sure if you actually squeeze your own orange juice with real oranges it can stay, but if you look on the back of orange juice you buy at the store, whats one of the biggest ingredients? SUGAR! Big no-no. Cause like I said before, you can't have your blood sugar get too high.
The ideal fat burning zone for your blood sugar is around ninety. And I think it's funny that I found this out now. It actually makes sense to me now why I have gained sooo much weight. The reason is, my freshman year of college, I was advised to keep my blood sugar in check, because I was pre-diabetic. And up till about two weeks ago, my blood sugar was almost always at two hundred or more. So, why no matter how much I worked out didn't it go down, and why didn't I lose more weight? Because I was still consuming foods that broke down to sugar in my body. Which in turn caused my blood sugar to spike, and made my body produce insulin to regulate the sugar in my blood. Each time insulin was produced, my body would hold on to fat. Each time my blood sugar spiked, my metabolism would get slower and slower. And quite honestly finding this out, THRILLS me. Because it makes losing weight SOO much simpler. I just need to eat foods that are actually healthy. Foods with ingredients I can pronounce. And by doing so, my blood sugar should stay in my target range which in turn will help me lose weight.