So, I'm posting this post rather early, because I don't think I will be able to get on later. Today has been an ok food day. I had beef jerky for breakfast. I know, I know, I probably could have picked something healthier, but I was on the run, and beef jerky is packed with protein. For lunch I had a cheeseburger...a horrible food choice. I already regret it. I haven't worked out yet, because I haven't been at home all day, but I will be working out shortly. I'm hoping I'll be able to last a little longer with my 30 day shred video today than I did yesterday. And for dinner I will be making fish fillets for my boyfriend and myself. I'm baking them to avoid extra calories. I'll also have some canned vegetables, and maybe a small baked potato for carbohydrates. I've done a little better so far today with pop. I had a bottle of Coke Zero.
Now to get into why I made a bad food choice. Lack of will power. Plain and simple. I was craving a burger, and instead of eating something healthier, I caved. I desperately need to change this. Because now, just minutes after eating, I feel very remorseful. I know it was a horrible decision. Will power is the one biggest thing I need to work on.
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Day One Progress
So today was kind of a good look at where I stand physically. I did my Jillian Michaels Thirty Day Shred workout video. While I thought I was in moderate shape, I learned after three minutes how out of shape I truly am. I could barely breathe. This not only motivates me to want to lose weight, but makes me take a look at other lifestyle choices. Such as smoking. While I have a very real fear of quitting and gaining a bunch of weight, if I can keep a healthy diet and work out daily, what is to stop me from quitting? Nothing. I think quitting is going to be a goal I have.
Today was a good day, as far as diet and exercise go. But then again all my diet/exercise programs go flawlessly for the first week. And then something happens and I go back to old ways. Such as I have a busy day, and don't workout. Then I fall back into the mindset of "oh I'll do it tomorrow". Or I'll go out to eat and have something unhealthy, and think well it's already a bad food day, might as well eat bad the rest of the day. I feel like, whenever I start to make progress, I sabotage myself in some way. I really don't know why I do it, especially when I know how much happier I feel when I workout everyday, and when I eat right everyday. I just don't get it.
As far as what I ate today, I started the day off with a Carnation Breakfast drink. It's a chocolate powder you put in milk, stir and enjoy. It has essentially everything you would get in a regular breakfast with less calories. Unfortunately, I was starving an hour after I drank it. I did not give in and eat though, I drank two bottles of water, and that really helped fill me back up. For lunch, I had a spinach salad, with some chopped chicken, 2 tbsp of ranch dressing, diced onion, and a handful of mozzarella cheese. This was very satisfying. I was not hungry immediately after eating. For dinner, I had a Gorton's fish fillet, baked, a small cup of brown rice, and some green beans. I also drank pop today, I switched to diet though which is a good change. I know I need to cut it out all together, but I need to wean myself off of the caffeine. I drank so much pop everyday, that if I try to quit cold turkey, I suffer major headaches that do not go away with just Tylenol or Advil.
I think all in all today was a pretty good day. I just hope that for once I can keep it up instead of sabotaging myself.
Today was a good day, as far as diet and exercise go. But then again all my diet/exercise programs go flawlessly for the first week. And then something happens and I go back to old ways. Such as I have a busy day, and don't workout. Then I fall back into the mindset of "oh I'll do it tomorrow". Or I'll go out to eat and have something unhealthy, and think well it's already a bad food day, might as well eat bad the rest of the day. I feel like, whenever I start to make progress, I sabotage myself in some way. I really don't know why I do it, especially when I know how much happier I feel when I workout everyday, and when I eat right everyday. I just don't get it.
As far as what I ate today, I started the day off with a Carnation Breakfast drink. It's a chocolate powder you put in milk, stir and enjoy. It has essentially everything you would get in a regular breakfast with less calories. Unfortunately, I was starving an hour after I drank it. I did not give in and eat though, I drank two bottles of water, and that really helped fill me back up. For lunch, I had a spinach salad, with some chopped chicken, 2 tbsp of ranch dressing, diced onion, and a handful of mozzarella cheese. This was very satisfying. I was not hungry immediately after eating. For dinner, I had a Gorton's fish fillet, baked, a small cup of brown rice, and some green beans. I also drank pop today, I switched to diet though which is a good change. I know I need to cut it out all together, but I need to wean myself off of the caffeine. I drank so much pop everyday, that if I try to quit cold turkey, I suffer major headaches that do not go away with just Tylenol or Advil.
I think all in all today was a pretty good day. I just hope that for once I can keep it up instead of sabotaging myself.
Why I'm Where I Am.
Growing up I ALWAYS battled with my weight. At the age of 8, I weighed 80 pounds. I lost a decent amount of weight my seventh grade year, only to have the weight creep back on each following year. Then I went to college. Between the late night munching, and not exercising, I packed on a total of 160 pounds. That is twice the weight I had weighed coming into college. Not only did it affect my physical features, but it has affected me mentally. I got to the point where I avoided looking in mirrors. I hated how I looked. I was disgusting. But at the same time, I was in denial. I always thought "oh I didn't gain that much, its just a few pounds. I can lose it, no problem." But I was very very wrong.
I'm a bit of an emotional eater. When I'm stressed, upset, angry, happy, bored, etc. I put food in my mouth. I always regret it afterwards, but during it I feel better. I know they say don't fix your problems with eating, but food at times seems to be the only constant in my life. It seems to be the only thing to comfort me.
But anyway, here I am. After yo-yo dieting for three years, after trying to starve myself on and off for three years, after starting every exercise program there is for the past three years, I'm going to actually try. Why now? Because I'm turning 22 in two weeks, and as you get older it gets harder to lose weight. And as you get older, the extra weight becomes worse and worse for your body. I want to live a long life, I want to have children and watch them grow old. I want to watch grandchildren play in my backyard. And the only way I can do that, is by being healthy so I can make sure I'm around.
So how is this blog going to work? Well, my plan is to log in each evening. Explain what I ate that day, what exercise I did, how I feel, and if I've had a bad food day, figure out exactly why I did. I'm not expecting too many people to follow this. And that's ok. Because if anything at least I will make myself accountable for all of the things I do each day.
I'm a bit of an emotional eater. When I'm stressed, upset, angry, happy, bored, etc. I put food in my mouth. I always regret it afterwards, but during it I feel better. I know they say don't fix your problems with eating, but food at times seems to be the only constant in my life. It seems to be the only thing to comfort me.
But anyway, here I am. After yo-yo dieting for three years, after trying to starve myself on and off for three years, after starting every exercise program there is for the past three years, I'm going to actually try. Why now? Because I'm turning 22 in two weeks, and as you get older it gets harder to lose weight. And as you get older, the extra weight becomes worse and worse for your body. I want to live a long life, I want to have children and watch them grow old. I want to watch grandchildren play in my backyard. And the only way I can do that, is by being healthy so I can make sure I'm around.
So how is this blog going to work? Well, my plan is to log in each evening. Explain what I ate that day, what exercise I did, how I feel, and if I've had a bad food day, figure out exactly why I did. I'm not expecting too many people to follow this. And that's ok. Because if anything at least I will make myself accountable for all of the things I do each day.
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